Spring is in the air, and with it the promise of my favorite holiday, Easter! But, it is not Easter bonnets that are on my mind.
I am typing while glancing at a Mary Engelbreit picture from a calendar that my sweet secret sister gave me for Christmas. It is the picture that is on March 11th and it is of a cute little girl bending over hiding something beneath a wide brimmed hat with all it's trimmings. I tear each day off to reveal the next, only to keep the old "days" in a stack on the microwave because I cannot bear to throw them away. Did I ever mention I am a HUGE Mary Engelbreit fan? Well for me and a select few friendies, she is the Illustrious Mary "E." Back to March 11th........I knew I kept this particular day for a reason, and here it is......it's the quote. It reads in cute font:
"KEEP IT UNDER YOUR HAT..."
Yep, totally life transforming. Well for this stay-at-home Mom who is just about frayed at the edges it is.
Remember what I said about "noise" a while back? How this and that and all of the in between things weigh on you and create noise in the soul? Well I was having one of those days. There is war on this front, discouragement behind door number two, and for fear of more burdens I even turned down all calls. My mind is going a mile a minute and guess what I want to do? (BESIDES eat.......! People........c'mon there IS more to me than food you know!) I want to call someone! I want to say, "Blah blah blah blah" to her, and then some more "Blah blah blah blah" to someone who is unlucky enough to be on facebook and available for chatting, and THEN I want to almost steam roller my husband when he comes home with not only my OWN "Blah blah blah's," but of COURSE the "blah blah blah's" of the others whom I have shared some "blah's" with!!! Whew! do NOT make me repeat that!
And after realizing the pickle I had gotten myself in AGAIN, and after bringing out a peace offering of roasted marshmallows on the stove to my now frazzled hubby sitting on the back porch, AND after listening to him tell me WHY I did not need to run to and fro for this reason and for that, AND after eating not one helping but two generous helpings of humble pie, which oddly enough resembles shoo-fly pie.......aka NASTY.......... I am back to my March 11th, staring at it and wishing it had somehow fallen off the microwave while I was in mid-blah to someone and spared me all of this horrendous mess.
I should have kept all my feelings under my hat. And I would just have to imagine one with am enormous brim to hide them all. Yes yes I know.......our favorite verse right? Mt 11:28 "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." Well at least I serve as a good example of their being no perfect people in the world??
Let me spare you some hard dealings friend. You do not have to fight every one's battles for them. If it does not involve you you do not have to involve yourself, and for goodness sake God will take care of it. Yes that should just about cover anything you are about to get full-headlong into in the next week or so! Did I sound like your Mother? ;-) I would have liked to carry the world's burdens this afternoon, only to make my day filled with other people's noise! When in reality I needed to stop, pray for them, for God to undertake for them, and then left it with Him.
Try this one on for size: Pr 29:11 " A fool uttereth all his mind: but a wise man keepeth it in till afterwards." I tell you when I am feelin somethin' I am feelin it and want YOU to feel it too! But Hubby reminded me that feelings come and go, and for me they are movin 60 MPH, but feelings are just that....feelings. That is why we rest in the fact, yes FACT of Heb 13:8...."Jesus Christ the same yesterday, and to day, and for ever." I just read that and breathe deeply. Am I the same? No way Jose, but HE is. And wonderfully hubby is a close relation.
Got a new Spring hat yet? I do. I won't be wearing it tho, it is housing a million thoughts!
Have a great night!