Friday, May 29, 2009

Call Back!

With a full heart I finally sit in the blue chair and begin to tell all you sweet friends what God has been doing in our hearts and home. Many of you already know that I am on partial bed rest with baby number 6, which we found out is a sweet baby girl!! I am having some complications and am prayerfully asking the Lord to allow me to carry this baby as close to full term as possible. The odds are against us, the ramifications of this up-coming surgery are great, but this is where the Lord desires to work His mightiest.

As you can imagine, fears can abound, despair, loneliness and the like. But God is sufficient. I wrap weeks of God's provision, workings, and mercy up in that statement. God is sufficient. When everything began to happen the Lord quietly gave me this verse: Ps 94:17 "Unless the LORD had been my help, my soul had almost dwelt in silence." Upon close inspection this verse takes on a greater meaning and comfort to me. So here is what some of the words mean, "Unless the (Creator of ALL) had been my (Help- as a mother succors her child) my (mind, emotions, will) had almost dwelt in (complete despair)." Isn't God good?

My heart is overflowing with gratitude for those who have brought meals, told me they are praying, sent me a box of "sunshine gifts" with the intent for me to open one gift per day, and have each taken turns watching my children allowing me to rest and Joel to get his work done, and us all meeting together again at dinner time to be together as a family. My church has rallied around us and encouraged us just as Aaron and Hur must have encouraged Moses, holding his arms up when they were weary. Only God can bless them adequately for their humble service, and we are asking Him to do just that.

With a lot of time on my hands I have had ample time to be with the Lord. Talk with Him, read my Bible, and allow the Holy Spirit to teach me some things. I am glad we gave the amount of children we would have to the Lord's doing, and have thought several times that if it were us who made this pregnancy happen, arranging things when WE thought WE wanted another child, then this whole circumstance would be in OUR hands. But we gave the Lord control of how many children we should have, and thus HE alone holds this situation and we can rest that He knows what He is doing in this. Ps 118:23 "This is the LORD’S doing; it is marvellous in our eyes." Isa 55:8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD.' We rest in this truth, Ps 72:18 "Blessed be the LORD God, the God of Israel, who only doeth wondrous things."

Again, God sustains. I cannot say that enough.

A poem I love God brought to my mind again and I want to share it with you. It never ceases to bring me to tears because it stirs something so deep in my heart, so real to me, and I wish I could have known the author to tell him or her just how much it has ministered to my spirit. It is found in one of my favorite books of all time, "Climbing," by Rosalind Goforth

Call Back!

If you have gone a little way ahead of me, call back--
'Twill cheer my heart and help my feet along the stony track;
And it, perchance, Faith's light is dim, because the oil is low,
Your call will guide my lagging course as wearily I go.

Call back, and tell me that He went with you into the storm;
Call back, and say he kept you when the forest's roots were torn;
That when the heavens thundered and the earthquake shook the hill,
He bore you up and held you where the very air was still.

O friend, call back and tell me, for I cannot see your face;
They say it glows with triumph, and your feet bound in the race;
But there are mists between us, and my spirit eyes are dim,
And I cannot see the glory, though I long for word of Him.

But if you'll say He heard you when your prayer was but a cry,
And if you'll say He saw you through the night's sin-darkened sky--
If you have gone a little way ahead, O friend call back--
'Twill cheer my heart and help my feet along the stony track.

It did it again! I had to go back and make sure that my tears didn't make me miss a word or two. :) All of us are that "friend" to someone. We are the one that they look to, to see if God IS what He says He is, if he has given us victory. They need to see our faith strengthened to have the courage to go on. I pray that I will be able to be a good soldier through this and be able to bring glory to Him for all that happens.

Much love to you all!


  1. You don't know the tears this brought on to me, too. I can't stop crying, Deena. I really don't know what else to say other than, "Thank you" for being that friend to me.

  2. Deena- I have been thinking of you and was glad to see this post today. Please know we have been praying for you and your baby. -Psalm 18:30-
    Love & Prayers-- Stacey

  3. Deena.I had heard you were having some problems and was so glad to finally see a post from you and hear how you were doing? I will be praying for you and your family through this rough spot that God will carry you through!Thank you for your encouraging words!